i am not made
for forgotten memories
or old stories you remember with fondness
i am made of all
the present adventures
and belly laughs of hidden jokes
i am not built
to withstand being let go of
even when I know it comes— and it comes
i am built
for lasting forever and cherishing tenderly
and for the giving and receiving of deep expressions of devotion
i am learning to live with all
that I do not find my own
i am learning to love all
despite the heartache of alone
i was constantly searching for knowing eyes
and a heart i recognize
and it only crushed my soul
i had to realize the ideal i wanted was never
a possibility and i did try,
but then i had to let that ideal go
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