Give Happiness A Chance

When blackness seems to surround

The hope you once held on to;

There is always a small glimmer of light

That gives you one last bit of truth.

When the rest of the world

Seems to hate what you've become;

There always seems to be one hand

That comes in to encourage you some.

I Miss You

Walking through life and all of it's phases,

Never once thinking you would someday not be a part of it.

Taking for granted your companionship and love,

Then in desperation searching for you and missing it.

Caught in the Rain

Sit here to think of something truly heartbreaking
Only you know of what I mean,
Only you know the beating I'm taking
Only you know, for you have seen.

Something so sad, yet inevitable.
It sits there, it knows I must come to know it.
It laughs, I believe it mocks me
For I will very much live it.

Crazy Circumstance

How many times

Can I dream about you
To face the fact
That something dear is missing?

How many situations must arise
Where I feel I need your opinion
Before I admit I feel lost?

If I could just meet you somewhere
Someplace and sometime
To discuss what all went wrong
To bring out the truth

Because somewhere in your mind and heart
And somewhere in mine
There lies a misunderstanding so deep
That it's built a wall between us

So many things I don't quite see why
So many reasons left unexplained
Why you acted in such a way
Why you said nothing and turned away... from me.

My mind practically chides me for feeling so forlorn
It warns, "You're better this way."
My heart feels abandoned and fearful and longing
For the friendship it proudly held with you

Where are those days of completeness?
The days where happened what happened
I could turn and know how you felt.
It reassured me, completed me, and gave me reason.

Now it's so different
Crazy circumstances brought us here,
To this point, this angering, senseless point!
Where I must believe I have never known you at all!

Oh, my heart how it aches to meet you all over again!
Oh, my eyes how they fill to change change change it now!

I am in a dark place searching for answers to
Why things must turn out this way,
But nothing is pulling me out to light
Nothing is presenting me the reasons why.

So I go on for I can't just stop
My legs carry me to continue through life
My mind works, and thinks of it all, but the one thing
That my heart carries brokenly deep in the insides; it cradles it.

A time when our friendship blossomed and trusted and laughed and cried...

...together.

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My Friend, The Wanderer

Woah! What happened here?

Were did you come from?
I was sitting in my peaceful life
And then, here you come.

Nicely planted in my garden
I'm now uprooted and surprised
Wow, you are really here
In front of my disbelieving eyes.

A trail of laughter follows behind you
A rainbow marks your steps
Fire-works sparkle above your head
And sweet honey from your lips.

You, your person, your being,
Your very dear soul,
Brings life anew to everyone you meet
And takes it away from everyone you let go.

I laugh content to see you here now
I bask in the warmth of your glow.
My eyes are so very bright and sparkle,
But they are not deceived. They know.

I dance inside, I waltz with your words
The promises that are so ideal,
I swing my arms open to take them to heart,
And sigh, "If only they were real!"

Then you see me with my smile
Knowing I have not trusted in your charade
But your mind skips and is sorrowful only a second
Then forgets again any promises made.

You look around for escape.
Where will the wind blow you now?
You're skipping away, then remember me and turn back,
But I am already settling down.

Then you understand that I understand
That you're a drifting tide.
That no matter how you, love, sing, and laugh, and dance
You will leave and run and hide.

But I have real life before me now
Filled with security, commitment, and real love.
And I chose not to go with you long ago,
For to me these roots I've settled into rise far above.

Farewell wonderful wanderer,
may you brighten another's day.
But may they learn that the wonder you give
Will in the end again and again, be taken away...

Copyright2009:@{LesNSpired—-

You

My thoughts do not do you justice,

The art from pencil and paint;

Pictures that are taken so often,

The resemblance ever so faint.

Your hands, chiseled and even,

Strong and textured just right;

Could not compare to such attempts,

To feel all this with mere sight.

Autumn Love Spell

leaves crunch beneath my toes

and breeze whispers in my ear,

i think of how much better it'd be

with you beside me, here.

i wrap my arms around the trunk

of the tallest brown Oak tree,

and think of the day you

will come, to embrace me.

i gaze up at the sky

that brightens in purple and pink,

i watch the horizon

for when the sun will start to sink.

So Blessed My Dear

Oh, blessed be this chest of mine, where your head lies at night;
And blessed be the heart inside that thumps louder every time.

Blessed be my eyes that behold your glances my way;
And blessed be the mind behind that can discern how blessed I am today.

Nothing

I am nothing and I do nothing...

Then what am I here for?

I am walking air, invisible to you

until what I do is too wrong to ignore.

I am non-existent, an irritant

until i stumble in your way.

Then i am mess and disappointment

and then i must know it's not okay.

Break Away

Break away and run
to a cliff far somewhere
to keep the shelter from shattering
and leaving my skin bare

Tease

Why did you glance at me at all
if it was only, and merely a glance?
If it meant not a thing
to see my heart start to sing,
Why did you look at me at all?

Why did you smile at me from anywhere
if it was only just a smile?
If what I assumed because
was something that never was,
Why did you smile at me from anywhere?

Why did you stand so beside me
if you were only just standing?
If you cared not how I did melt,
nor how much I had felt,
Why did you stand so, so close beside me?

How dare you breath softly down my neck
simply because you must breath!
And expect not a feeling,
not one that is so reeling,
that is overwhelming the insides of me.

Curse you for looking at me at all!
Curse you for smiling at me as I fall!
Curse you and the presence of your stand,
and your wicked breathing, and where it just had to land!

How careless you have been.
How so very foolish of me
to have made such a deal
of something so unreal.
To have believed more of your chivalry.

Step back, Sir, and leave me here.
Let me weep alone.
To have been so cavalier
So careless and insincere,
A greater man, better he would have known.

Copyright2009:@{LesNSpired----

January 2000

Encounter With You & Happiness

the moon is smiling
deeply at me
i think it's a bit relieved
to see me this happy.

for how many times
has it looked down,
to find this girl
sunken in a frown?

How many times has it shared
a view with the stars,
in scenes of terror
that have left pain and scars?

how many times
has it come to find,
tears falling like rain over broken dreams
that would never bind?

the moon, only a witness
to what i never had,
now has an eyeful
of the reasons i'm so glad.

it's sky, by evening
is in all shades of pink,
it's blushing too, at the thought of you
that is what i think.

it shares with me the pleasure
of hearing your words,
and can clearly see what you've done;
for, times of ache i endured,
the times where no one else heard,
have drifted away to the sun...

oh yes, for they have gone.

Copyright2009:@{LesNSpired----

You Learn

I find that wishing for you,
doesn't make you come.
I find that hoping you'll be
doesn't make you the one.

I realize that reading my mind
is something impossible for you.
I realize that no one knows
exactly what they should do.

Blinded Of the Obvious

Just stop and take a look at me,
And tell me that your eyes don't see,
The reason that I still be,
Standing here before you.

A Buried Past

A certain silence screams
and I am dumb to the sound;
the curve of enthusiasm past
is no where to be found.

Numbness settles in my mind
where adventure used to lie;
and the peace that hovered above
has been shattered across my sky.

Dangerous Dare

You said “Leave”
And the word echoed in a million different ways
Hammering and piercing
And cutting through the quarrel and war

My mouth stopped short
My own words hanging dry
My arms still in the silence
I felt I had not heard you right