losing things

I am always dropping things

losing them carelessly

As if I forget that my hands

can keep a hold of them

Is it involuntary for some?

the muscles of the fingers

that grip on to important items

and not forget them?

Once, I held a pencil

in school in the hallways

and upon arriving to class

it was gone

many times, it was gone

Sunset

When I walk to view a sunset 

I am walking to my peace 

to stand before the water 

that flows to quiet me 

The heaviness of any loss

and all such suffering 

is buried within each step 

It is accepted and released 

The birds take off to the sky

with each burden of mine carrying

while showing me freedom

and hope holding beneath each wing 

How

They ask me how I do it…
Tell me, please, what would 
they have me do?
What are my options, really?

i'll handle it

I have always handled it

People unhappy, moody, unaware

And I've handled it all and by myself

I have always handled it

lest things seem to get out of hand

I've silenced myself and smiled to pretend

tired

I don’t have the strength 
or the heart for it 
anymore 

Les’Nspired

self-soothe

Swaying to the rhythm

of my heartbeat

Hand to my chest

lest I forget what settles me

    1,2,3

    back and forth, to-and-fro

A rocking to a melody

all my own

    It is tender and soft

    and my eyes are closed

It is the gentle healing

with a moment enclosed

-Les'Nspired

blank slate

how do i explain what happens when i sleep? 

how the night changes everything. 

how i close my eyes 

and with the sunrise 

it is a blank slate again for me 

how people can be so unsure 

and make me feel so insecure 

that i wonder what to believe 

maybe

when she closed her eyes 

and felt the wind 

she knew that things 

may one day be good again 

if she could still appreciate 

the coolness upon her skin 

then when warmth came 

she could maybe let it in

-les’nspired

Written: Nov 2022, but still relevant. 

more

you’ve lived a life
like it was a chore 
a task to accomplish
and tried not to keep score 
at ease you left every situation 
quietly you shut each door 
never thinking what it felt like
to be completely floored
by just how much 

you could be adored  
no, you did what you had to 
thinking it was all you were here for
but i’m here to tell you,
babe, there is so much more 

-les’nspired

Written: Nov 2022, and still relevant 

small joys

I will look for the small joys

that sneak up on you at times

That tend to hide when you are sad

and can make you a bit blind

I will bask in the 80/20

the blessings that fill my life

like my surrounding forest

and sunset walks

like the stars that shine at night

Sweet things

a rainbow in the clouds 

out a plane window

lights below the water

bouncing from sunlight

a bright lilac sunset

above an ocean emerald green

ocean floor discoveries 

waiting in the sand

experiment

was this an experiment?
you viewing me from
behind a glass wall 
“how will she handle this trial?
is she tough?
will this time make her fall?”