for the birds

this time 

i won’t rewind us

until you are loving me

the way i remember 

it went down 

all those months ago

i’m gonna leave it 

right here 

let it flow 

past

and just like that 

you walked away 

your life continues 

it’s already a new day 

i had not prepared 

you were at goodbye so fast 

so,this is how you go about it 

with me already in the past 

you just missed me

just missed me 

i left flowers at your feet 

a laugh you’ll never meet

but only once 

a scent of vanilla and musk 

a trail of loyalty and trust 

you let me go 

you let me go 

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(verse 1)

He kissed my hand 

beneath the moon 

And I tried not to 

think too much of it 

He gave me his coat

as the wind blew 

He ignored me 

when I told him not to 

dark waves of the sea

lean back

try to lean into it 

sometimes feel 

out of my mind 

will i make it out 

of all that is old and new?

lightning is shooting across my eyes 

and the ground is moving 

where will i fly?

they tell me

they tell me about you

i see you in the background 

are you happy?

is it enough? 

isaac

i will laugh out loud into the universe 

pray on my knees to My God

lay my words upon His feet 

ask him to make a diamond out of me 

there’s nothing left for anyone 

that carried or held or loved

so much investment of my heart 

and here it lays full of dust 

amnesia

 3 am
and it’s 3rd day
ground zero 
it’s all erased 

promise?

little 

by little

you feel 

you are fading 

away 

the same

eyes 

not looking 

at you 

in the face

something else

why would you choose 

something else 

when i was standing right there?

when all of soft lights were landing upon my face

and it lead you all the way 

to this place 

reminders

at times the person will walk away 

and leave you wondering why 

it’s in their fearful nature, the walls of their heart 

that has them react with goodbye 

it’s going to take some time

it’s heartache 

and i know 

it’s going to take 

some time 

to look out 

at a barren landscape

and see that hope 

could still live here 

echoes

the echo of a voice 

a low chuckle 

and a promise 

comes though loud 

and clear 

and honest 

strangers again

one year will pass

then two 

and you will no longer know me 

nor I, you. 

what will it be now

what will

it be now

that i am on 

white sand 

beneath a sunny sky?

will these hot tears 

finally hit the 

ground

and run dry?

grief

it builds until

it may burst 

amongst all the pretty 

fields of blooms

a grief so consuming 

it turns the skies gray 

the clouds dark 

and full of rain 

change

simply put

i am here 

and soon enough 

i won’t be 

and life is so strange 

the way it makes you change

and nothing ever 

stays the same 

rooms

layers of dust have begun to

gather in the corners

there are books filled with words

no one ever remembered

the couch is worn

and tattered on the arms

the rug has thinned over time

where the tv sat flickering on

excerpt

he tried again

it was to his disgrace

for no woman is okay

being second place

shady business

i won’t pretend 

to misunderstand 

just so it’s comfy where you’re at    

if you don’t see the “i know”

inside my soul

i won’t convince you, comrade