incase you wondered

if i could have said anything 

it would have been to

“push, say it, be brave.

don’t let the moment pass us by.

do not hesitate.”

when you saw me 

and you wondered 

you should have thought 

yes she wants me to 

even when you didn’t know 

tell me

tell me

how to love you 

and i’ll meet you 

right where you need me to 

show me 

what is okay 

what is exactly 

the amount i can do

isaac

i will laugh out loud into the universe 

pray on my knees to My God

lay my words upon His feet 

ask him to make a diamond out of me 

there’s nothing left for anyone 

that carried or held or loved

so much investment of my heart 

and here it lays full of dust 

amnesia

 3 am
and it’s 3rd day
ground zero 
it’s all erased 

wanting everything

silly little girl 

wanted everything 

and she cried at night 

and the hours between 

and cared only if she was seen

carried away (version 2)

You were always

getting carried away

with endless possibilities 

and I,

well, I was always 

on solid ground

carried away

i was carried away

by endless possibilities 

and you,

you were always 

on solid ground 

words

i am full of them 

they come pouring out 

like droplets of rain 

slow and steady

and then all at once 

a downpour 

the torrent 

the rolling storm 

mercy

mercy, 

he looks at me 

with those loving 

compassionate eyes 

and they undo me 

Texas

Wide open skies 

remind me 

that Texas sunsets 

bring me home 

promise?

little 

by little

you feel 

you are fading 

away 

the same

eyes 

not looking 

at you 

in the face

what is it?

what is it 

hun?

you stand there 

like i might have the answers 

like perhaps if you speak 

your woes

and I nod all the “I knows”

it will shine the light on 

the truth between the lines

in the other conversation 

we are not having— 

but it flows 

something else

why would you choose 

something else 

when i was standing right there?

when all of soft lights were landing upon my face

and it lead you all the way 

to this place 

attached

there is a love so sweet 

well within me 

the sun is shining 

while sadness recedes

my hand is held 

by my God of peace 

and he cares for me exactly  

the way I need

experience

i want you to go 

experience the world

all the countries 

all the corners 

of this beautiful earth 

and should the urge overwhelm you

to return,

come by 

tell me how many people you met 

memories you made 

cultures you’ve touched 

new things you’ve learned 

and then take a breath and let me ask you:

the whole time

the whole time 
i was just chasing a place 
that felt like 
the space between your arms 

x+y=z

i think no one taught you what it looked like,

how it felt, or what it was 

but the needing to know, the sensing of presence, 

and the tender affinity is love

enough

you tried everything 

it was enough 

sit and rest a moment 

if it feels like too much  

you were wonderful  

despite how difficult it must have been 

and now you can lay your heart down 

it is enough 

reassess

when it gets confusing 

step back and reassess 

in the stream of things 

how big this is 

let things go

that you cannot control 

and be still with the joy 

that you can hold 

reminders

at times the person will walk away 

and leave you wondering why 

it’s in their fearful nature, the walls of their heart 

that has them react with goodbye 

i will be your peace

i will be your peace

and you will be mine

and we will sigh upon this earth

“It was about time!”

hold my hand like

you always wanted to 

and i’ll pull you close because 

forever is overdue 

learning capacity

How to make things 

matter less than I find them to be

Make it make sense

when this was never me

Observing myself more

What does this mean?

What did I want,

and what did it mean I need? 

it’s going to take some time

it’s heartache 

and i know 

it’s going to take 

some time 

to look out 

at a barren landscape

and see that hope 

could still live here 

remedy

birds in the morning 
and frogs at night 
my pup lies in the grass 
and a gentle breeze at noon 

the sea is down the road 
it’s where i go to think 
and the sun is good for my soul 
when my heart starts to sink 

echoes

the echo of a voice 

a low chuckle 

and a promise 

comes though loud 

and clear 

and honest 

good intentions II

tiny lizards 

climb the porch screen 

they jet around 

then remain still 

watching me slowly

oh, am i the danger?

then why am i a bit scared?

strangers again

one year will pass

then two 

and you will no longer know me 

nor I, you. 

take

they come for me 

taking my time

my energy 

my attention 

they demand of me

and remind me 

this is what

i must be 

what will it be now

what will

it be now

that i am on 

white sand 

beneath a sunny sky?

will these hot tears 

finally hit the 

ground

and run dry?

grief

it builds until

it may burst 

amongst all the pretty 

fields of blooms

a grief so consuming 

it turns the skies gray 

the clouds dark 

and full of rain 

held

they want me

but they cannot hold me 

and that makes all the difference

my center

i am

grounded 

i am

supported 

and at peace

the fear 

i am leaving 

behind

it is not what 

follows me

r.i.p. 🫀

i am about to weigh in

on my greatest faith jump 

and it will determine where i go

and where i end up 

how much will shape me

into the diamond of the highest quality 

and what will pull at the strings 

of a my heart’s full capacity 

change

simply put

i am here 

and soon enough 

i won’t be 

and life is so strange 

the way it makes you change

and nothing ever 

stays the same 

bless-ed ways

some things come by 

sweeping you up like a wave 

so big 

you just have to dive under 

and there you find the calm 

away from the crash 

you won’t sink 

you’ll swim 

and you know 

you’ll come back up 

for air, again