slipped

slipped and fell in the same accursed well

i will learn this time 

i will

crossed my arms and still

managed to open them wide for this hell

but i will learn this time

i will

broke this promise to myself

caught on too late but it was just as well

i will learn this time

i will

-les'nspired

December

December came

quick and stealthily

with the crackling of pinecones

underneath my feet

the scent of Juniper

tangy and sweet

and the stillness

in the frigid air

quieting anxiety...

"Shh," it says, "Shh...

delight in the serenity."

-Les'Nspired

I knew it

I knew it when he chose 

to pick himself up and walk away 

to spend time with someone else;

I knew it then 

and it was clear as day 

I was in this world all by myself

November

in November

I reach for me

into the depths

of where I first wailed

and clenched my fists

kicked my legs

and gulped the strangled air

to become

a fighter

but mostly a lover

The Battle

He wielded his weapon

like a specialist

I responded with a stance of

a worthy opponent

But he played unfair,

He hid his best moves

while he pretended to dance

as my equal

Turbulent

Sweetness,

I miss you

more than words can say

the truth sits

upon my silent tongue

all throughout the day

shell

I will respond to you with smiles

focus on your words and offer up

everything I have to listen

Alien

Where do I fit you now?

Your words bent you 

into a shape

I do not recognize

I just want to rest

I only need a place

to rest a while

without panic or defense

without fight

Conundrum

He waited most patiently 
endearing to all he cared for 
with sincerity and kindness 
And here she came;

perfectly packaged 

as if made for him 
almost as if wrapped in a bow 
with his name

Little White Butterfly

outside to take in

the view of the sky

and in doing so greeting 

a little white butterfly

flickering its wings like twinkling lights

between the blade of this and that 

ahead of me on my walk

seemingly quick and rash

it is a jumpy thing

my anxiety quite the same

and if beauty can be found in this

perhaps i need not feel ashamed

-les'nspired

Knowledge & Understanding

tell me

what do you know of loneliness

when you revel in solitude?

what do you know of the ache

deep within rattling bones with fire

when you've never felt passionate?

trauma

I followed my trauma around

as if it defined my first name

I knew not what life was

when it was quiet and mundane

This feeling within my heart

these butterflies rather coy

The sunshine on my face

I knew not what to do with joy

-Les'Nspired

Removed

I was always a bit removed

from the room

until the space

was filled with you.

Then there was nowhere else

but this moment, this view

and that is how I knew.

-Les'Nspired

ghost

You want to ignore me
then be my guest

I am so often disregarded

it is a state of rest

You want to forget

words and kindnesses, please do

people have negated their love so often

and much worse than you