past

and just like that 

you walked away 

your life continues 

it’s already a new day 

i had not prepared 

you were at goodbye so fast 

so,this is how you go about it 

with me already in the past 

you just missed me

just missed me 

i left flowers at your feet 

a laugh you’ll never meet

but only once 

a scent of vanilla and musk 

a trail of loyalty and trust 

you let me go 

you let me go 

🎵 Now Playing: What Happened

(verse 1)

He kissed my hand 

beneath the moon 

And I tried not to 

think too much of it 

He gave me his coat

as the wind blew 

He ignored me 

when I told him not to 

confidant

i miss you 

in those moments 

when my world is upside down 

and your calm presence 

would hear me out 

when you’d take some time

to listen to my noisy mind 

and offer wisdom 

of a balanced kind 

they tell me

they tell me about you

i see you in the background 

are you happy?

is it enough? 

amnesia

 3 am
and it’s 3rd day
ground zero 
it’s all erased 

promise?

little 

by little

you feel 

you are fading 

away 

the same

eyes 

not looking 

at you 

in the face

something else

why would you choose 

something else 

when i was standing right there?

when all of soft lights were landing upon my face

and it lead you all the way 

to this place 

enough

you tried everything 

it was enough 

sit and rest a moment 

if it feels like too much  

you were wonderful  

despite how difficult it must have been 

and now you can lay your heart down 

it is enough 

reminders

at times the person will walk away 

and leave you wondering why 

it’s in their fearful nature, the walls of their heart 

that has them react with goodbye 

it’s going to take some time

it’s heartache 

and i know 

it’s going to take 

some time 

to look out 

at a barren landscape

and see that hope 

could still live here 

echoes

the echo of a voice 

a low chuckle 

and a promise 

comes though loud 

and clear 

and honest 

grief

it builds until

it may burst 

amongst all the pretty 

fields of blooms

a grief so consuming 

it turns the skies gray 

the clouds dark 

and full of rain 

held

they want me

but they cannot hold me 

and that makes all the difference

r.i.p. 🫀

i am about to weigh in

on my greatest faith jump 

and it will determine where i go

and where i end up 

how much will shape me

into the diamond of the highest quality 

and what will pull at the strings 

of a my heart’s full capacity 

for the weary

ah yes, honey,

i recognize heartache 

bring your pain right in here 

if it’s getting too much to take 

i can put my hands over my eyes

and pretend not to see you cry 

one step

one step 

deep breath

all i have in me

this time

is one step 

open my eyes 

won’t always be a pretty sunrise

but if i could just stand up 

take one step

it can be alright 

i know

dear one

let me hold your hand through it 

i know 

i know 

in the grand scheme of things 

it’s not so big 

let’s step back a moment 

and look at all the wonderful moments

the beauty that is this big life 

water days

water running down my face

to land in a lake 

hold my hands tight into fists 

tonight, there’s little fight in me 

decide to give up myself

there’s nothing else to give 

i’m empty of everything 

i thought id need to live 

interplay

I didn't always know how to respond

when they made me feel like I belonged

I knew one day they'd take it back

and act as if they never once loved me at all

It's the cycle I know well

as if it is my middle name

and yet I am always hoping for better

and believing in more all the same