living

is the best yet to come?

when does it feel like we’ve won?

all arrows point to my feet in the sand

a lovely understanding friend 

and gentle rests in the sun 

and my heart 

when does it heal?

can it do so while in pain, still?

the wait feels slow 

but i’m not sure it’s time to go 

when the moment doesn’t yet feel real 

for the birds

this time 

i won’t rewind us

until you are loving me

the way i remember 

it went down 

all those months ago

i’m gonna leave it 

right here 

let it flow 

🎵 Now Playing: Remember When

(instrumental)

(verse 1)

remember when the snow 

nipped our fingers 

and you grabbed mine and put them in your pocket?

and i laughed because

you looked at me silly 

and my stomach was flittering

the fire pit burned

our words spilled over drinks 

and that’s the first time

i heard your voice crack

saw that tear in your eye 

and i knew i didn’t want to leave 

confidant

i miss you 

in those moments 

when my world is upside down 

and your calm presence 

would hear me out 

when you’d take some time

to listen to my noisy mind 

and offer wisdom 

of a balanced kind 

🎵Now Playing: Big Sky Above Me

bringing light to the darkness 

developing understanding and awareness  

is something i will wrestle with 

and i know it 

and i’ll fight for it

because at the end of each battle 

i know that being kind is what i want to be 

that loving everyone is who i am 

and speaking from the heart is what i do 

even when it hurts me to 

even when it hurts 

🎵 Now Playing: Love Me Hard

I look ahead 

to the brightest of days 

I open my eyes 

to the sun’s rays  

letting it soak into my mind

that this one stays 

Oh let’s see where such promises carry us

and where it goes 

and how steadily over time 

my trust grows 

the rabbit in the moon

the rabbit in the moon 

means the world to you 

and the man that filled you with love 

leaves grief in his wake ;

and you are beautiful 

so very beautiful 

the way you share his qualities 

in your every day

pittance

coming in closer 

and i don’t remember 

what the world looked like 

when i backed up to see 

if you heard me 

when i said what 

i liked 

a voice keeps reaching 

my ears are listening 

and i can’t remember what it felt like

when i told you stories 

you used to remind me

of later in the 

interim 

🎵 Now Playing: Texas Sunsets

Came upon these 

open flat plains 

and they took

me back to better days 

of easy love 

and simple things

that sun went down

my eyes looked up

and i could recall all

the good things in my life 

again and again

sometimes i’m so happy 

drifting me away until

i can’t feel my face 

where were the tears

that broke my heart yesterday?

and i can’t find my sadness

these days 

but i know i didn’t give it away 

dark waves of the sea

lean back

try to lean into it 

sometimes feel 

out of my mind 

will i make it out 

of all that is old and new?

lightning is shooting across my eyes 

and the ground is moving 

where will i fly?

incase you wondered

if i could have said anything 

it would have been to

“push, say it, be brave.

don’t let the moment pass us by.

do not hesitate.”

when you saw me 

and you wondered 

you should have thought 

yes she wants me to 

even when you didn’t know 

isaac

i will laugh out loud into the universe 

pray on my knees to My God

lay my words upon His feet 

ask him to make a diamond out of me 

there’s nothing left for anyone 

that carried or held or loved

so much investment of my heart 

and here it lays full of dust 

wanting everything

silly little girl 

wanted everything 

and she cried at night 

and the hours between 

and cared only if she was seen

carried away (version 2)

You were always

getting carried away

with endless possibilities 

and I,

well, I was always 

on solid ground

carried away

i was carried away

by endless possibilities 

and you,

you were always 

on solid ground 

words

i am full of them 

they come pouring out 

like droplets of rain 

slow and steady

and then all at once 

a downpour 

the torrent 

the rolling storm 

Texas

Wide open skies 

remind me 

that Texas sunsets 

bring me home 

what is it?

what is it 

hun?

you stand there 

like i might have the answers 

like perhaps if you speak 

your woes

and I nod all the “I knows”

it will shine the light on 

the truth between the lines

in the other conversation 

we are not having— 

but it flows 

x+y=z

i think no one taught you what it looked like,

how it felt, or what it was 

but the needing to know, the sensing of presence, 

and the tender affinity is love