I think mostly my pride
makes me want to hide,
so that no one can see
I stand alone with this tree,
to admit openly
no one watches for me.
Is it always so bad
to not be wanted by man?
Can I find satisfaction within
from simply being able to live?
Can it be okay
to not have anyone really know
the depths of thoughts
of the ways of my soul?
Can it feel like something other
than just merely surviving?
to have creation in my bones
can it feel instead like thriving?
Could it be enough
to feel my Father beside me?
Without needing someone on Earth
to want me beside them?
I pray for contentment.
To humble my own heart.
To need no attention.
To not always want to be part
of someone's eyes
their prize
the wonderment
in their surprise,
To be special
and beautiful
to be touched
and made full...
Perhaps I can be
significant
because that's what
my God meant,
when he created me
to
begin
with.
-aq/lesnspired
