the reason for tears

the reason for tears
is because people today
do not say what they mean
and do not mean what they say;
and I am not created
to navigate this way

this is the most inauthentic

it feels wrong in my soul,

to take away my right

to be sincere and whole;

when they choose to act

contrary to what they know,

and to hand me instead

only what they want to show

and i have to act

like i am just a ghost

it has stripped me of value

it has ripped me a hole

so big that this sadness

leaves me wondering how do we grow?

why am I the monster

in the story they chose?

how is it okay

for them to be fake?

I think this I will never know.

I guess it is a lesson
I would have learned slow
and this has been a merciless push
to let this falsehood go,

because no friend of mine could watch me cry

and pretend it isn't so.

-aq/lesnspired