February 4, 2025

awake


sitting here talking to the shadows 

in my room 

the companions 

of my nights 


what happens when there’s nothing left 

to do?

when i search inside 

and there are no lights?


leave my skin untouched

before the simmer or wave 

bringing sand to the beach 

a spark to my blaze 


but i sit within the coolness

of an actual real day 

not lost within worlds 

of dramatics and screenplays 


these tears are of a fool 

who used to dream of hope 

she is very awake now;

there is no little girl 

waiting for joy to come to her, 

she is only what life spit out 


very bitter and hurt

but trying still to make some sense

of her worth 

blessing others from the dirt 

where her face has rested 

since birth 

finding a way to water 

her soul

dying of thirst 

from the depths of the ocean 

drowning in all

she has left of her words 


-les’nspired



written: April 7, 2023