What can I say?
As much as I try,
my heart is the same.
I need an overhaul
better yet, a removal,
and to change my name.
So that I am not me
But someone stronger,
And more resilient.
Instead of someone who
runs and hides and cries,
And sits in sentiment.
So that I leap forward
in all my thinking,
and am happy and carefree;
Instead of someone who
wishes for something else,
Instead of me.
So that I can be a bit
more callous and heartless
just enough to really let it go;
Instead of hanging on to every
piece of every moment in every
tender promise and cherishing it so.
Yes, new patterns I must make
for my heart and soul's sake
and for the dignity of me;
If there is any left in my hands,
I want to salvage it if I can,
And be as different of a person that I can be.
Call me Resilience.
Call me Strength.
I will call myself Brave.
Do not call me Sentimental
Nor Love right now, nor Precious,
And do not use my name.
-aq
