finally

He will say 

“I’m here. 

God, I’m here.”

and there will be a

chorus ringing in the background 

and a humming of a sweet melody 

spooks easy

he was fearful 
but he didn’t even see his strength
he jerked around 
without knowing he was safe 

he tolerated me 
and watched my way 
and then leaned into my side 
as i proved i would stay 

same same

he shakes them up 
then pops one in
drinks it down 
then licks his lips